Ever feel like you spend your life on fast-forward? I am sorry to admit it, but this has been my default setting throughout much of my life. I seem always to be projecting to a time, somewhere in the distant future, where I will be happy and free of all emotional and mental pain and torment, I will have the perfect diet, and therefore be the perfect weight, I will be in the perfect relationship with – you guessed it – the perfect guy! My business will be running perfectly, I will be paying all my bills comfortably, and so enjoying myself that my life will be absolutely stress free! After this endless reverie I splash back down to my life now – nothing! I have none of this stuff RIGHT NOW, so why not just go ahead and eat in bed, take a nap, read that escapist novel! The dishes, the phone calls, the bills – all that will just have to wait until...tomorrow...or the day after that....
Reading this quotation got me to wondering – maybe the journey is what it's really all about! And even if it isn't, I do indeed only have this moment, and seen from this perspective, right now is really not so bad. What makes my life terminally "wrong" is the fact that I tend to project my fears and worries for the future onto the present, which leaves me in a state of dread for something that may never happen!
What more do I need? Perhaps a way to counter-balance the years of negative thoughts with positive self-messaging. So I am learning to recite affirmations every morning and evening, even though I often feel foolish or like it's a futile exercise.
But it all begins with surrender, which I forget and remember a hundred times a day, and keeping my focus on living in the present moment! This I must do on a daily, minute-by-minute basis, and is, I believe, the meaning of our quote. Staying present to my life is the practice of life itself, life on life's terms, God's will, not mine, be done. Not the getting there is important, but the being here now, living through whatever comes my way. Only through this perspective will I take the time to grow, appreciate and live in gratitude for all of life's blessings. I'll take that over crumbs in my sheets any day!